When you’re little, your whole world is the home you know. Your parents, your siblings-your family. You cannot imagine a world or time without them. They are, as essential to you as your own limbs.
I remember when i was in 3rd grade maybe, i asked my mom who she loves more us(her children) or her siblings? Cz for me, little me could not understand how my mom was surviving without her siblings with her. My siblings were the whole world to me.
My mom, wise woman that she is, said i love both.
But i pressed on! I said but what if you had to make a choice, she said without hesitation that if it came to that then i would choose my children.
I looked at her in awe. My world view momentarily jarred. I couldn’t make sense of it.
As you grow older, you have no choice, you move apart, sometimes physically and sometimes emotionally because of the choices you make. But you’ll always be a part of the whole. As if limbs of a single body. And being pulled apart hurts just as it would hurt the body to have it’s limbs be pulled at.
Yet, like all pain, this too is necessary. Sometimes in order for more relationships to form, those of spouses and children. Some times for our own personal growth. Some times for financial reasons. You follow the path laid out for you. Maktub. It is all pre-written, by the Hand that sent you here and loves you in ways you cannot fathom.
And as you grow even older, children leave, spouses leave, sometimes you end up in the same places you started off from or sometimes in far flung places you never imagined.
The older you grow, the heavier the heart gets. For it has now loved and lost many times. Only to love again, eventually. All earthly love, though beautiful is ephemeral, temporary, and hence painful.
There’s only one love that’s Divine, eternal and constant. His love. And a permanent abode, to which we will return and have all our little loves returned to us for our hearts to be whole again.
Till then, we must dredge on. Weary, tired yes. But content in the reminder of His love. The One, True love!